I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS FROM Pokemon.
I do not own the song lyrics either that goes for both chapters.

This is an AAMRN/Drama/Angst fic.
WARNING: Rated R, for Adult content and real life situations.

Author’s notes and Warnings: Toward the end of this story it contains very real life situations. If you are a bit wary of blood or sex being mentioned. (There will not be any detailed accounts) do not read on. The issues toward the end of this story can disturb readers, so please I have warned you! -- The second part of this story is very emotional. In addition, I hope nobody who reads this has ever had to experience this kind of loss.
PLEASE READ ON AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION.



There were no lies
by A*MON

Ash (16)
Misty (17)
Brock (20)
Delilah (40)
Nurse Joy (25)

***’s mean in between scenes and time lines.
’Italic’ means thoughts: - (Pokemon language) are in these things.

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All my life is changing every day in every possible way
and in all my dreams it’s never quite, as it seems, never quite as it seems
I know I felt like this before, and now I’m feeling it even more, because it came from you
I know I felt like this before, and now I’m feeling it even more, because you’re a dream to me. ~Fragma (My Life)

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Chapter 2: Can things get any better?


It had been two weeks since the misunderstanding with Joe, back in Viridian City. Pikachu had gotten over the fact that Ash had forgotten about him; it took quite a few packets of ketchup to help persuade the little yellow mouse. Ash had also decided to quit the Challenge’s League after the whole thing with Joe.
There was always next year. In addition, this gave him even more of an excuse to train harder.

It was a fine day, the sun was shinning, and the air was clear and crisp.

Brock stared at the two lovebirds. He had met up with them a few days ago; he had some things to attend to back in Pewter and had contacted them in Viridian to check on Ash’s position in the Challenger’s League cup. This is how he learned about the new couple they had become and why Ash had quit the C.L.Cup.

Ash and Misty were walking hand in hand content with being in each other’s company. They had been walking awhile in the forest not really bothered about going any where special.

“ Um… guys, could we may be stop off in Celadon later this afternoon, there’s a Breeders Convention in town and I wanted to check it out.” Asked Brock.

“ Yeah, that sounds interesting Brock. May be I could check out the mall while we’re there!” Replied Misty enthusiastically.

“ Okay, Celadon it is. We could stay at the Pokemon centre while we’re there and I could catch the ending of the Challenger’s League. You know out of curiosity.” Ash continued.

***

All agreeing to meet at around 6:00pm at the Pokemon centre to meet for dinner. They had all gone their separate ways. Misty heading for the Mall, Brock going to the Breeder’s Convention and Ash with Pikachu and Togepi to the Pokemon centre to find rooms for the night.

***

”Hey… guys, enjoy your day?” asked Ash.

“ Yeah! I found a great new store that sold every thing to do with Water Pokemon! It had Pokeballs in all kind of blues and purples, the latest fishing equipment. You name it; they had it! I am so pleased we came here!” Misty exclaimed.

“ I didn’t really find what I was looking for.” Sighed Brock.

“ What was that Brock?” they both asked.

“ Suzie. She said she would be here and would meet up with me to catch up. “He replied gloomy.

Both Ash and Misty looked at each other before sweat dropping and trying to change the subject, before things got ugly. Listening to Brock’s rejection stories were getting old. Trying to change the subject Ash decided to announce.

” So… I managed to get some rooms at the Pokemon centre even though they were full. Nurse Joy looked busy and run off her feet, so I offered my talent and services for the day in payment for two rooms.” Ash said smugly.

” Talent… Yeah… right Ash, you’re so full of your self.” Misty answered back sarcastically.

They both carried on play fighting while waiting for their orders to come. Brock couldn’t help but feel a little out of place. ‘Three’s a crowd’ he thought to him self. Just as he was going to intervene in on the cute scene the food had arrived.

” Great! Let’s eat!” Ash exclaimed.

”Pika!” (Yes!)

***

*Later that night*

Knock… Knock…

” Coming…” she called in a load whisper.

” Hey you… can I sleep in with you tonight, you know who is snoring”

” On one condition”. She whispered in his ear, as he walked in side the dark room.

” And what would that be?” he asked in a low voice.

” Come over here and I’ll show you.” She replied.

***

” Morning you two. Your up early Ash, I didn’t even hear you get up this morning.” Brock said with a yawn.

” Yeah I… didn’t want to wake you… so I… came down stairs to get um…. Breakfast.” Ash managed to stammer.

” Oh. Whatever Ash. So what are we going to do today guys?” Brock asked while sitting down at the breakfast table.

” I thought we might head for Pallet, go home, see mom, home cooked meals, rest, and relax for a bit. What ya say, you want to go guys?” Ash asked his two friends, who nodded in reply. “Great! After we eat we head to Pallet.” Ash exclaimed.

When they had finished eating, they went back up to their rooms to pack and get ready for their trip back to Pallet. Ash was excited to finally get to go home, he had missed his mom’s cooking and sleeping in his own bed. He had some news to tell her too, Misty and him were now officially a couple. He couldn’t wait to see the look on his mom’s face when he told her his news.

” Pika-pi, pi pi cha?” (Ash, what ya thinking?) Asked the yellow electric mouse, who had noticed Ash spacing out.

He looked down at his Pika-pal and smiled. ” I was just thinking about seeing mom, I haven’t been home in over 3 months!” Ash told Pikachu.

” Pi, Pica pika pi pi Pikachu” (Yeah, we could do with a break) Pikachu said with a smile.

Ash smiled back at his little friend, picked his backpack up, and slung it over his shoulder. “Come on buddy, let’s see if Misty and Brock are ready yet.”

Pikachu nodded and scampered up Ash’s leg making its way to be settled on his head. They both walked from their room toward the Pokemon centre reception area in search of their travelling companions.

***

They had all set off from the Celadon Pokemon centre around noon, by the time Brock had finished his search for Suzie. With no luck, they had made a move onward to Ash’s hometown. Brock had managed to plot the route on the map, so that they could get to Pallet in the next few days.

” If all goes well and we manage to stick to this route I’ve planned, we should get to Pallet in the next couple of days.” Brock told Ash and Misty. The route in which they would be following would lead them strait through Mt Moon, passed Pewter and Cerulean into Route 2- Viridian Forest.

They had been making their way toward the first rest spot, which was a river just on the base of Mt Moon. It was a beautiful spot which was secluded from the mountain it's self; trees surrounded the portrait scene, the river was almost clear and you could see the many Water Pokemon that lived in it's depths.

” Oh… It’s so beautiful and romantic here. Don’t you think guys?” breathed Misty.

” Pika!” (Yeah!) Pikachu agreed as it scampered off Ash’s head toward the river.

Putting an arm around her shoulders Ash replied.” Yeah, this is kind of a relaxing place.”

” Hope you guys are hungry, because I made us a large batch of my ‘no chew stew’”. Brock asked his friends. They all nodded their heads and gave Brock an eager “Yeah!” He smiled at their response. “Give me a minute or two to warm it a little, then you can eat all you want.”

After they had eaten and rested for a while in front of the riverside, they decided to move on to make better time on their journey back to Pallet.

***

The sun had long from settled by the time they all reached Route 3. Pikachu and Togepi were asleep on their respected trainer when Ash, Misty, and Brock had stopped to set up camp for the night. Travelling for a good few hours since their stop in Mt Moon had worn out the group tremendously.

” If we wake early enough tomorrow morning we may reach Pallet by about dinner time.” Ash said to Brock and Misty.

” Okay, if one of us wakes up before the other, then they have to wake the rest of us.” Brock replied. Both Ash and Misty agreed.

Deciding they should all get a much deserved rest, they put the fire out and headed to their sleeping spots under a near by rock which stood tall enough to shade the area they were to sleep on.


*Later that night*

It was passed midnight when Ash awoke from his dream, he had tried to fall back to sleep, but found he couldn’t. It was getting bothersome and he was getting restless. The one thing that kept him awake for this length of time was he couldn’t stop thinking about the one girl he had fallen in love with. Misty. She had managed to capture Ash’s heart and constant thoughts. The redhead with aqua green eyes, he could stare in to for hours had charmed every corner of his mind and soul; she had been hitting his heart, with her every touch and word she would beside upon him, which made him constantly light-headed, warm inside, sent shivers up and down his spine and the familiar feeling of butterflies arise in side of him every time they kissed. He turned his head toward where Misty laid asleep. She looked beautiful in the moonlight; the only sound that could be herd coming from her direction was Togepi lightly snoring. He wanted to sleep a little longer, but the need to touch Misty and to listen to her voice or feel her breath on his skin was beckoning his passion and desire for the redheaded angel. He quietly got out of his sleeping bag; making sure Brock and Pikachu were sleeping soundly and crept to where she were asleep. He gently nudged her lightly enough for her to stir and whispered her name in to her ear. She moved a little and opened her eyes.
Aqua and brown coloured eyes meet as she slowly sat up from her sleeping bag. She smiled at him and was about to ask him what was the matter, but never got the chance, because they were engaged in a deep kiss. When they had both decided to catch their breaths, Ash spoke lightly again in her ear. “ Misty, come with me for a walk?”

She looked up to his face; his eyes were shimmering in the moonlight and had them affixed on to hers. She smiled and nodded to his request and gently moving away from a sound asleep Togepi took a hold of his hand and followed him into the forest of trees.

They had been walking for a while in silence and had stopped by a large tree. Ash was leaning up on it, Misty leaning on to his body, passionately kissing and holding one another close to each other’s body. As their kiss got deeper and even more fired up they began slowly moving toward the ground, their hands moving over each other’s bodies and removing items of unwanted clothing that was stopping them from feeling the warmth from each other’s skin.

***

The next morning started as per normal, a shock from Pikachu awoke Ash from his sound slumber. Which both Misty and Brock awoke from Ash’s load wails of pain.

” Waaaa… Pikachu! Why did you do that?” Ash asked his little electric friend.

” Pi pi Pikachu cha pika pika” (Brock said the first to wake gets to wake the others.) He said with a sly grin.

” A simple nudge would have been enough, don’t you think Pikachu” said an annoyed Ash.

” Cha!” (Sorry!) Pikachu apologised while rubbing the back of its head embarrassingly.

” It's a good thing Pikachu was up this early, or we would have slept in.” Brock interrupted.

” We had better make a move guys or we won’t get to Pallet by dinner like we planned too.” Misty informed them.

“ Misty’s right, come on let’s pack up, eat breakfast then get going.” Ash ordered them.

The group of humans and Pokemon listening to Ash’s order, straight away turned to pack and change before sitting down to eat a little breakfast. It was going to be a long trek through Route 3 to get to Route 2 in Viridian Forest, at least half a day. Moreover, the weather had decided to change a little from sunny and warm to wet and windy.

***

They were drenched, dirty and tied by the time they reached the shelter in Viridian. Stopping, if only to dry off a bit in the cabin before reaching Pallet Town. Rain and wind was not going to stop Ash from getting home tonight, he was determined to get that home cooked meal and see his mom this evening. Therefore, they had not stayed there very long.

***

Reaching the edge of the forest and over looking the cliff, they marvelled at the view. Pallet was shimmering with lights and blurry movements could be seen from a far. The small town had gotten popular over the last 5 years, the population count increased to about 80% since Ash lived in the town. The explanations for this sudden increase had been accommodated by the amount of successful trainers, which had left on Pokemon Journey’s. In addition, Professor Oak has highly recommended lectures at the local schools and colleges. The town was not small any more. Ash couldn’t believe his eyes; he was home and before any one new, he was running like the wind down the cliff edge toward his hometown. They all ran as fast as they could to catch Ash up. Trying to remember what the town looked like when they had last visited was a hard job, things were constantly changing a new College had opened and a Pokemon centre was in the middle of development. The town sure had changed a lot since they were kids.

Ash halted abruptly nearly causing a collision. There in front of him was his house, his home where he had grown up in. Every thing was the same; the red slatted roof, white walls, the porch with the chair swing, mom’s garden, white picket fences reaching around the whole house and the red front door. He then noticed his mom was standing in that very same front door way smiling and waving to him and his friends. He waved back running toward his mom beckoning his friends to follow.

Delilah opened her arms to reach her son giving him a gripping hug. ‘Wow… he’s gotten taller’ she thought to her self. “Oh Ash, I’m so glad your home” she managed to sob out through her tears of joy.

” It's good to be back home mom, I’ve missed you so much.” Ash replied. She smiled again wiping away the tears from her eyes noticing Brock, Misty, Togepi and Pikachu standing in the rain, she immediately called them inside the house.

” Come in, you must be freezing.” Delilah called to them. “Ash, why don’t you and your friends go and change out of those wet clothing, and then we can catch up a little over a nice hot soup.” She continued.

” Sure mom, we would love that.” Replied Ash. “Pika!” (Yeah!) Pikachu echoed.

***

”Here you are a nice cup of soup.” Delilah handed four cups of soup out to her guests. “So Ash, how have things been, did you manage to compete in the Pokemon Challengers League?” she asked him with a curious look on her face.

He smiled a little uncomfortably before replying to his mom’s question. “Umm… well you see mom, that’s what I was going to tell you. I quit the Challenge’s cup. Umm…” he could see the curious look on her face had turned in to a confused one. “Because… um… I… decided to compete next year.” He stammered.

She looked even more puzzled at Ash’s excuses. It wasn’t like him just to quit he was too stubborn and competitive. He was making this up. “Ash, I know your lying. What really happened for you to just quit a tournament like that?” She asked him.

He laughed a little nervously and sat a little nearer to Misty on the chair. He grabbed a hold of her hand and said the first thing that sprang to mind. “Mom, Misty and I are together now.” He said to her trying to change the subject.

She looked at the two teens holding each other’s hand and immediately sprung up with arms open wide to hug the two of them. Who were now both caught up in her arms. “Oh! My baby is all grown up! I’m so happy for you.” She cried. When she eventually released them, Ash started to explain how they had gotten together and why he had quit so easily.

Brock was enjoying every awkward moment that Ash was accounting for. He thought it was funny to see Ash squirm from his mother’s angry glare. Brock knew Ash’s mom had raised him to be honest and loyal. What happened in Viridian City nearly cost Ash’s entire life. Misty was another issue; Delilah had a soft spot for the red head Ash had befriended all those years ago, hurting her like that was unquestionable.

***

It had been nearly 4 weeks, since they all arrived in Pallet. There time spent in Pallet was a good one. Ash had reacquainted with some of his school friends and had been helping Professor Oak with the daily Pokemon chores. Misty had obviously stayed with Ash she kept on complaining of sickness and stomach cramps occasionally, but had enjoyed her stay. Brock had been more interested in helping with the construction of the new Pokemon centre. The Pokemon had got to stay in Professor Oak’s reserve, and Ash, Misty, and Brock had earned a little bit of cash. Knowing that they could not stay too much longer, they decided to show appreciations, by taking Professor Oak and Delilah for a meal at a local restaurant.

“ Mom, thank you for letting us stay for so long.” Ash said to Delilah.

“ Yes, thank you Mrs Ketchum, I have really enjoyed my stay here.” Misty added.

“ Same here Mrs Ketchum.” Brock piped in.

She smiled at the three young people in front of her. “That’s alright, your welcome to stay when ever you want.”

They continued to talk for a while. The discussions had continued through out dinner and pudding and it was nearly 11:30pm when they had decided to leave the restaurant.

***

The next day Ash, Pikachu, Misty, Togepi, and Brock were all getting ready to leave Pallet; before setting off the goodbyes were always the most upsetting. She could feel the tears in her eyes as she hugged her only son goodbye. She knew he wouldn’t settle down for too long, but wished and hoped he would some day. “Bye honey, don’t forget to change your you no what’s and…”

”Mom! I’m 16 years old.” Ash moaned embarrassingly.

”I know I just can't help but worry about your health.” She sighed.

“ Don’t worry Mrs Ketchum, I’ll make sure he does every thing you say.” Misty replied reassuring her.

“ And I will look after both of them for you Mrs Ketchum, keep them out of trouble and make sure they are well fed.” Brock added.

With that, they waved goodbye to Delilah and made their way once again through Viridian forest on to the next city.

***

”Okay guys, where too next?” asked Brock.

” I really wanted to get a little training in before heading for the next City guys. If you alright with that?” Ash answered then asked. Both Brock and Misty agreed. “Okay, then I think we should just head for Celadon again, that way we can travel through Mt Moon again.” Ash added. Getting in a lot more training for competing in the Indigo League again was Ash’s next goal.

***

While travelling around the world training Pokemon may seem fun, it takes a lot of skill and knowledge to become a champion or Pokemon Master. Ash has been training for most of his life, it was his life, but recently there has been another interest he has got to like. He now had another obsession. His best friend come lover. Sure spending time training and with Misty was not very hard, in fact he thought life was treating him good and things were looking his way.

Nevertheless, can things get any better?

***

Ten weeks ago, Brock would be trying to break yet another trivial argument between the two teens. In addition, to even suggest Ash and Misty were in love or were a cute couple got you a bad hangover. That was not the case anymore.

Walking hand in hand enjoying the fresh air and each other’s company, Ash and Misty were heading back to the camp area where Brock was looking after Pikachu and Togepi for them. They had decided to go for ‘one’ of their little walks in the forest. Of course being the third party in the group and not really assuming they were having ‘sex’, he didn’t want to prier in to their relationship or ask the two teens where they were going that afternoon. ‘Trust…Misty would never be so irresponsible. Ash is probably too scared to even bring up the S word.’ He thought simply shrugging his worries off.

Although he may have wished, he had asked them…

***

*That night.*

She awoke from yet another nightmare, her face was pale, beads of sweat poured down her forehead and her hair stuck to her neck. She turned to check that she had not waked any one else. Ash and Brock were sound asleep. She sighed in relief, almost like a rush of wind passing by, she felt nauseous and light-headed. Trying her best to ignore the pain in her gut, she rolled over on to her back hoping for some relief. It didn’t work. She got out of her sleeping bag and ran to a near by tree, throwing up behind it. She couldn’t help but worry; she had been 3 days late and had missed a cycle already. What scared her most was if she were pregnant, it would be her fault and Ash would be angry and leave her. She needed help and fast.

***

They had arrived in Celadon after a week of camping and were making their way to the Pokemon centre.

”Hello Nurse Joy.” Ash greeted.

”Oh Hi Ash, welcome back to Celadon, can I help you this fine day?” she welcomed and asked.

”Yes thank you Nurse Joy, we were wondering if you had any rooms we could stay in.”

”Yes, we have. How many would you like Ash?”

Turning around to meet his friend’s eyes, he thought about it before signing the rooms under his name. ‘Okay. Brock and I could share a room; I normally sneak in to Misty’s room anyway. So there would be no point in separate rooms for Brock and I.’ “Um… 1 twin and 1 single will be fine, thank you Nurse Joy.” He informed her.

”Okay. Here are your keys, rooms 20 and 21 with connecting doors.” She said cheerfully.

”Thank you Nurse Joy.” Misty said while trying to hold back a drooling Brock.

***

*That afternoon*

She felt dizzy and disorientated, the nausea had crept upon her once more. She felt so alone and unhappy. She tightly closed her eyes; whishing the cramp would pass. She had to find out what was wrong with her and needed to talk to someone about these emotions she were experiencing. The only person she thought might be able to help her was Nurse Joy. Summering up the courage to talk to Nurse Joy, she cleaned the sweat off her face and brushed her hair ready for her meeting with the Pokemon Nurse.

She was starting to have second thoughts about letting her fear of pregnancy be discussed with the Nurse. She was about to turn and leave to head back to the elevator when she herd her name being called.

”Misty.”

She turned to see the cheerful and bright face of the Celadon Nurse Joy. “Oh! Hi Nurse Joy. I was just looking for… um… for… um…” trying to summon the words she stuttered in gibberish.

The Pokemon Nurse looked at the young teen in front of her curiously, she noticed Misty looked pale and had bags under her eyes. Only assuming the teen needed help, she took the initiative and spoke to her softly. “Misty, if you want to talk I am free, but it is up to you.” She waited for a reply of some sorts.

Misty looked up at the friendly and concerned face of the young Nurse; she nodded in reply. Nurse Joy led Misty in to one of the examining rooms at the back of the centre and told her to take a set. Misty complied and sat in silence until Nurse Joy asked her a question.

”Misty, is there anything wrong?”

Until now, her head was lowered toward the ground. She was staring at the Nurse’s face. She could feel the butterflies in her stomach. ‘She looks so concerned; I really need some help. She is my only hope.’ She thought to herself.

”Nurse Joy, I … I haven’t been feeling so great for the last couple of weeks; I’m having trouble sleeping, I keep throwing up, I feel faint, I…I just don’t know who else to talk too.” She crocked out. The tears were starting to overwhelm her and she broke down. Nurse Joy immediately rushed to her side trying to reassure the scared teen.

”It’s going to be alright Misty, you did the right thing by coming to talk to me.” As being a nurse, although a Pokemon specialist, the Joy’s had human anatomy training as a compulsory measure. When trainers reach their teens, they are required by the Pokemon League and Licence issuers to undergo physical examinations. It was a new law. She gently led Misty over to the examining table and asked her to change in to an exam gown.

Misty had managed to calm down a little from her sudden out break of tears. Following Nurse Joy’s request, she put on the gown and sat on the examination table. Feeling a little uncomfortable and apprehensive, she asked the Nurse what would be next.

”Okay Misty, just relax and try not to worry. First, I am going to examine your stomach.”

The examinations had gone on for a little bit. Misty didn’t enjoy them very much. Nurse Joy had told her to get dressed and wait in another exam room. She had only been waiting for around about half an hour, but it seemed hours to Misty. She saw the door open and Nurse Joy standing there with a clipboard in her hands.

”Okay Misty, you can come back in now.”

She could feel the butterflies in her stomach again and the worries returning as she moved toward the open door. She took a seat in front of Nurse Joy and awaited the results.

”Misty, I have to ask you one question about your relationship with Ash, and I want you to understand, you have to tell me the truth. Did you ever stop to think about using protection while having intercourse?”

Misty inwardly started to panic; her heart was beating about a dozen beats per minute. Her voice was low when she answered the Nurse’s question. “Honestly. Yes, but it just happened.”

”That is no excuse Misty, you should have been more careful.” She justified.

Misty could feel the tears welling up yet again. “Nurse Joy, what am I going to do?”

”Firstly, I am going to talk to Ash…”

”No!” Misty interrupted loudly. “I can't tell Ash, it’s my decision.”

”Misty, think about this. Ash has a right to know.” She tried reason with her.

Misty sighed and started to let the tears fall from her eyes. “I’m so scared. I don’t know what I’m going to do.”

Nurse Joy felt a little remorse for the scared redhead. She looked down at the clipboard and read a little of the chart. “Misty, your about 7-8 weeks pregnant. You are going to have to start looking after your self and get as much rest as possible, you can't do this alone, the worry and stress will not help you or your child.” She said softly.

’7-8 weeks pregnant, then it was conceived the last time we were here. Our first time.’ She thought to herself. She broke down once again.

***

She was staring out the window from her room thinking. ‘I am 2 months pregnant. I can't believe this. I am going to have to tell Ash, but how do I tell him. Morning Ash, oh by the way I’m pregnant; we’re going to have a baby! I can just see the look on his face. I know he’s going to be angry, what happens if he leaves me.’ Her thoughts were cut short when she heard the door being opened. She looked up to see Ash in the doorway smiling at her. She immediately turned to look in the opposite direction. He looked a bit confused and hurt by her sudden reaction.

”Mist, is there something wrong? Have I done something to upset you?” Ash asked her.

Silence…

”Please Misty, tell me what’s wrong.” He pleaded.

”You don’t want me to answer that question.” She said in an unreadable emotion.

‘ Why does she always do this when she is mad at something’ Ash was starting to fell his anger rise a bit. “I am sick and tiered of trying to talk to you when you’re mad or upset! You are going to tell me what the problem is right now!” he yelled at her.

She immediately whipped her head from the window and shouted back, “FINE! You want to know what’s wrong? I’ll tell you what’s wrong! I’m pregnant!”

Dead silence…

More silence…

Ash was in shock. Misty just announced that she were pregnant. This couldn’t be happening, not now. They had the rest of their lives to have children. Not now. He was only 16 and she was only 17. I am too young to be a father.

”When did you find out?” he asked her in a low voice.

”I saw Nurse Joy this morning, she confirmed my suspicions.” She explained.

”Oh… I’m going for a walk.” He told her and left.

”That’s right Ash; leave me. I knew this was going to happen.” She said to her self. She had the familiar feeling of giddiness fall a cross her as she feel to her knees and sobbed into her hands.

***

Ash was walking like a zombie; he looked spaced out. Nurse Joy had noticed the young teen walk into the reception area and had guessed he had probably found out about Misty’s pregnancy. She had decided to see if she could offer him some support and advise. “Ash, are you alright?”

Ash looked at the Nurse in front of him. “It was a mistake.” Was all he could manage to muster.

”If you need to talk about this, I can listen. I will answer any of your questions Ash.” She reassured.

He nodded and followed her into the back of the centre. She asked him to sit in the exact same seat Misty had heard about her pregnancy.

”Ash, I know this is come to be quite a shock, but your not alone in this. There are people you can talk too; you have friends and family to support you. Please tell me what your feeling’s are about this.”

”Misty. I bet she hates me.”

She smiled inwardly, most men would be putting the fault on the female and leave them straight away. She knew Ash would be different. You could see the bond that they had, even if they never new how strong it was. “So your worried about Misty?” she asked him. He gave a little nod in reply. “Okay. Anything else?” she asked him again.

”I’m not sure about…”

”What do you need to know?” she asked.

”Everything.”

”Okay. Misty is about 2 months pregnant; at the moment she doesn’t show any sign of development. She should start to show in about another month’s time may be a little longer. That’s when she would be having her first Ultrasound.” She noticed his confused and questionable face and told him what that was. “That’s how the doctors monitor the babies growth and heartbeat.” They continued the discussion for a while longer. Nurse Joy had gone through every question that Ash needed to know about this pregnancy.

One question would still need to be answered, but that had to be Ash and Misty’s decision. What was going to happen next?

***

WARNING: The following scenes contain blood and serious real life situations. Please read at your own discretion.

***

Brock had been reading a Pokemon magazine in his and Ash’s room. When Pikachu, whom Ash had left with Brock a while ago. Heard Misty crying in the room next door, being a little troubled he ran to Brock and started to quickly talk and point toward the connecting door between their rooms.

”Pika pika pi pika chu pi pi chu!” (Brock I can hear Misty crying. come on!) It cried while pointing at the door.

”What was that Pikachu, I can't understand what you’re trying to say?” he asked a little confused.

Pikachu decided to make things a little easier for the clueless rock trainer, so shocked him.

”Pikachu, why?” he moaned. Then fell off the chair onto the floor just in front of the connecting door. He could hear a faint noise coming from Misty’s room. He realized Misty was crying. He bolted up from the ground and knocked on the door gently. “Misty?” he called quietly. “Misty, are you all right?” there was no answer. He turned the key and opened the door. She was on her knees sobbing in to her hands; he rushed to see what was the matter. “Misty, why are you crying? What happened?” he asked her softly.

She looked up at her older friend/brother, she could see the concern written on his face and by the way he had gently put his arms around her to hold her close for comfort; she knew she couldn’t lie to him. “Oh Brock, it’s all my fault.” She sobbed.

”What happened? What’s your fault?” he asked her softly.

”I… I… Brock, it’s my fault. Ash… he… left because… because I…I’m pregnant.” She stuttered through her sobbing.

”What?” He asked a little shocked. He couldn’t have heard that right, but she said she were, “Pregnant” he spoke aloud.

”Brock, I’m so scared… he… he just left…he’s angry at me isn’t he?”

Brock looked in to her eyes, they were not her normal colour of shinny Aqua, but were a dull looking blue, she had red and black circles under and around her eyes. He could see all the anguish and worry that plagued her. He gently helped her from the floor and spoke lightly in her ear while still holding her. “Shhh… It’s going to be alright, don’t worry, I’m here for you.”

He could feel his blood boil with anger, when he got his hands on Ash he didn’t know what he might do. He was angry at Ash, but more so with him self. How could he be so… so blind, he had honestly thought he had let them both down, he had been a friend, a brother, and a parent to both of the younger teenagers. He had never felt so disappointed with him self and Ash had let him down. He had been the one to share their questions and concerns about relationships both physical and emotionally. There must have been something he did wrong. This was his fault.

***

Ash had been talking for a bit with Nurse Joy, he was going to talk to Misty and except he had this responsibility, not that he would have left her. He loved her; why would he up and run from their mistake. No, he was going to be there for Misty and help her through this all the way. He would never suggest an abortion; Nurse Joy had explained a bit about adoption. He new they were too young to be parents. All he wanted was for his child to have the best care and love, to give it the best kind of life and a loving family.

He made his way back to Misty’s room. He had just left her when she had told him, he didn’t know why at the time, but he needed time for this news to sink in. He felt bad about leaving her. Regretting doing such a stupid thing, when she obviously needed him.

***

Brock was trying his hardest to help calm Misty down, she had been crying into his chest for at least 15 minutes or so. ‘This can't be helping her much, poor kid. When I get my hands on Ash I’m going to kill him!’ he thought angrily.
”Misty, try to calm down. Every thing is going to be alright, you haven’t done any thing wrong.” He reassured her.

He had not noticed Ash in the doorway.

”Please Misty, try to stop crying your not going to help your self by getting so upset” he was about to lead Misty to a near by chair when he noticed Ash in the door way. It took nearly all his will power to stop from beating the living hell out of him there and then. “Ash” he growled. Feeling a little scared Ash took a few steps back from Brock when he heard him say his name.

”Brock, I… It… was…” he stuttered a little nervously.

”Ash, you had better get away from me, because if you come any where near me. I’m going to beat the living shit out of you!” he growled at him through clenched teeth.

”Brock, I’m sorry. Please don’t…”

”Get out NOW!”

”NO! I’m not going anywhere.”

Brock had had about enough; his anger was at boiling point and it was about to blow. He let go of Misty and charged for Ash. “I’m going to kill you!” he yelled. Ash stood his ground. Brock was about a few more inches from Ash when Misty stepped in front of him.

”No Brock. Leave Ash alone.” She cried. He stopped immediately. “Don’t be mad at Ash. It’s not his fault. It’s mine,” she said with a whisper. He looked at her, “No, it’s not your fault.” He said more calmly.

”Brock, please listen this was a mistake. We never meant for this to happen.” Justified Ash.

Brock got angry once again hearing Ash’s voice. “You little bastard! I’m going to strangle you.” He yelled while lunging for Ash once again. Misty grabbed a hold of Brock, trying to pull him back from Ash. “Please stop this Brock! Please… arrgh…” she grabbed a hold of her stomach and cried in pain.

”Misty!” They both shouted and rushed to her aid.

”It’s Okay… I’m alright… don’t worry. It was just a little cramp.” She lied to reassure them and her self. That was no normal cramping pain.

”Sit down Mist. Come on” Ash said while leading her to a near by chair. She looked up at him and smiled faintly. He grabbed her hand reassuringly and kissed her forehead. He then turned to face Brock, who was staring at Misty with a concerned look. “Brock, I know you’re angry with me, but please it wasn’t meant to happen. It wasn’t planned, I… I… I’m so sorry.”

Brock just looked at Ash, still feeling angry. “I will talk to you later Ash. Misty needs us at the moment.” He said with a low voice. Ash agreed and they both took positions next to Misty, trying to comfort her.

***

*That night*

Ash and Brock lay in silence in their room. Pikachu had decided to stay in with Misty, knowing how Brock felt about Ash at the moment it was probably best if it wasn’t around when they talked. Ash was staring up at the ceiling. ‘I have to say something. I can't just sit here all night with out trying to apologise for all that has happened. I really screwed up this time.’ He thought to himself. He sighed and decided to speak up. “I’ve let you down haven’t I?” he asked quietly.

Brock didn’t reply straight away. Ash waited for his verdict.

”You are irresponsible and selfish. You’ve let every body down. I’m more than angry with you; I’m fuming. Did you not think of the consequences of your actions, did you ever stop to think about Misty. No, I bet you weren’t thinking of any of those. You were only thinking of your self and your own god dam pleasures. Do you know what really gets me about all this Ash? Is that all those times I offered to look after Togepi and Pikachu, all the times you had supposedly woken up early, the walks alone in the forest, you were… and I… I trusted you, both of you. I let this happen right under my nose. I blame my self, because I am responsible for the both of you and I’m angry and hurt. This is my fault; I am the one who should have seen this was going to happen, I’m the one that let you down; I failed at my job as the older one. I just don’t know where I went wrong. I never meant to get that angry, when I saw you… I don’t even understand why myself ” Brock growled.

”Brock, it wasn’t your fault; it was mine. Your right… I’m irresponsible and selfish. I wasn’t thinking with my brain I was thinking with my…my own self-pleasure” Ash managed to stammer. “If I could do anything to change what has happened I would, but I can't. I can't do this with out you. I need to know if you’re going to leave. Because I wouldn’t blame you if you left and never looked back. I’ve made a mistake, an even bigger one than in Viridian. I’m only human and I’m not perfect, I’m scared and I’m worried about letting Misty down, I’m worried about what mom will say and think. What’s going to happen after the baby is born.” He could feel a lump forming in the back of his throat.
”All these thoughts are whirling around my head and I don’t know what to do? Brock, I’m so sorry, I never wanted any of this to happen…” he managed to croak out.

Brock sighed. He turned his head toward Ash and spoke to him softly. “No, I’m not going to leave you, friends stick together when they’re in trouble. We’re going to have to tell your mother tomorrow. Then we are going job hunting. We stay here until after the baby is born and go from there, by then you and Misty would have come to some decision. Okay?”

”Okay” Ash answered in a whisper.

***

The following day Brock had made Ash phone his mother first thing. She had not taken the news of Misty’s pregnancy very well. Ash had another lecture from her this time. He knew he deserved this, his mother had been very disappointed and had began to cry at one point, blaming her self for not taking a bit more parenting observations. Ash hadn’t said much in his defence; because every thing that Brock and his mother had said was true, he was irresponsible and selfish. Toward the end of their conversation, she had managed to take in the news a little more. Still not denying she was happy about this nor did she approve of his selfishness, she offered her support for the young teenage couple.

Once off the Videophone, he went in search for Brock to let him know what his mother had said about this situation.

”Ash over here, so what did your mom say?” Brock asked him.

He looked up at him and smiled a little, almost nervously he replied to Brock’s question. “Um… She was upset and disappointed in me. She cried a little, blamed her self for being a bad parent…I begged for forgiveness, that didn’t work, but she is still mad at me and worried about Misty.

”And…?” Brock asked.

”And she said she would help and support us when or if we needed her help.”

”Okay. You’re lucky you have a parent to ask for help Ash; Misty has no one to ask for support. I mean her sisters, huh… what would they do? When was the last time they bothered to contact her? To ask if she were Okay, or even alive. So… just be grateful that your mom, is a kind and caring person and would do any thing for her only son.” Brock said with a sigh. “Come on, we need to find a job.”

Ash thought about that, Brock was right. Misty’s sisters were more concerned with what they looked like and their own lifestyles to even give Misty a second thought. Maybe that was a little harsh, but they sure do give the impression that they don’t care or seem concerned for Misty’s welfare. ‘They still need to know, after all they are still Misty’s family.’ Thought Ash. He followed Brock out of the Pokemon centre and in to the street to find a job centre. The city of Celadon was a large populated capital, so finding a job to do and earning some cash should be a breeze. So they both thought.

***

The first thing Misty felt when she woke up that morning was the persistent giddiness and nausea, she leapt out of her bed at top speed heading for the bathroom for her daily routine of the ‘Morning sickness’ bouts she had been experiencing for the last few weeks.

She got up off the floor of the bathroom, looked in the mirror above the sink, her face was pale, her eyes were blotchy, and she had bags under them. Noticing she was still dressed in the clothes that she wore from yesterday. She ignored that, turned the tap on, and cupped a hand full of water to her face, it helped a little to wake her and remove the sweat off her forehead.

That night she had been having trouble with getting to sleep, she had told Ash and Brock about the pregnancy and thinking Ash would be angry and leave her had scared her a lot. The constant badgering of these thoughts had kept her awake for most of the night, she still believed that it was her fault. When Ash had left her room when she had told him she were pregnant, she had felt sick and dizzy, the thought of Ash being angry and leaving her had struck her like a bolt of lightning, she panicked and sunk to the floor crying. What worried her most was that she had ruined Ash’s life by getting pregnant and making Brock angry with him, she couldn’t understand why he was mad at Ash.

Not even hearing Togepi’s constant wails coming from the bed room, she closed her eyes and bitterly thought ‘I’m the one who should be to blame, not Ash. I wouldn’t of ruined Ash’s life if I had been more careful. I hate the fact that he has to put his life on hold because of me and this…this…thing in side me! I wish you would just go away! I hate you!’

”Aarrghn…” she yelped in pain grabbing her stomach. Keeping her eyes tightly shut and clenching her teeth trying to hold off the pain.

***

Togepi had been disturbed by Misty’s sudden departure from the bed, being a little young to understand what was going on, it started to wail and bawl it's eyes out wanting attention from it's ‘mom’. Not receiving any, it stood from its position near the pillow and made it's way down to the edge of the bed. There it stopped and tried to get down in search for it's ‘mom’, jumping down from the bed it landed on the floor, on to something red and smooth, it looked like Ketchup, associating this with it’s favourite ‘uncle’ it trilled happily following the little trail of speaks along the floor.
Reaching the end of the trail it stopped in front of the bathroom door.

”Togi togi” it said while pushing at the door. It opened slightly and it saw what it was looking for. “Togi!” it cried in delight at seeing its ‘mom’.

She smiled down at her baby egg Pokemon, only just recovering from the sudden cramp, picked it up; held it close and hummed a little tune to comfort it.

Opening the door and noticing the speaks of red coloured liquid on the floor, she started to panic. “Togepi! Have you hurt your self?” she asked in concern, searching for the wound; she found a speak of red on the egg’s side and feet.
She rushed quickly out the door and down stairs in search of Nurse Joy.

***

“Nurse Joy, could you look at Togepi for me please?” she asked.

”Sure, I can. Bring it around here and you can come with me to check it too.” She replied.

”Thank you, it’s probably a little scratch or something, it must have fallen off the bed.”

”Don’t worry Misty. I’m sure Togepi is going to be fine.” She reassured the young redhead. Wiping the red liquid off Togepi, she searched for any kind of cuts or grazes. “Well, I can't see any kind of cuts or grazes, but it’s probably to small to notice. You said it might have fallen off the bed?”

”I had to get up in a hurry this morning, you know… so I left it alone. I’ll be more careful next time.”

”Okay.” She smiled at Misty, noticing how pale she was; she offered Misty a hot drink and something to eat. Misty excepted Joy’s offer with a nod and smile.


***

Brock and Ash had spent half the day searching for some work. It was harder than they thought, not having any luck they just called it a day and decided to try again tomorrow.

”I didn’t realize it would be this hard to find work in such a large city Brock.” Ash puffed a little out of breath.

”Yeah. Hopefully we will have better luck tomorrow.” Brock replied.

Reaching the Pokemon centre, they walked in through the doors and headed toward the elevator. Ash then noticed Misty walking out from the examination rooms at the back of the reception desk, concerned about her; he rushed over to see what was wrong. “Mist?” he called. “Misty, are you alright? What happened?”

She turned around to look at him, he looked worried, and his eyes were locked onto hers. She gave him a reassuring smile. “Don’t worry Ash, I’ve been helping Nurse Joy out this morning, I’m alright.”

”Oh…” was all he could say, he stared into her eyes, still feeling concerned. She was staring back, but then diverted her eyes toward the ground, she still blamed her self and couldn’t look him in the eye for very long. Ash was beginning to think Misty hated him.

Brock had noticed the uneasy silence between the two and decided to take them both back up stairs. They needed to talk this out between them.

”Ash, Misty come on.” He called to them.

”Okay/Coming” they both replied.

***

Brock had told them that they needed to talk alone for a while, so shut them in Misty’s room. They had been sitting next to each other in silence for the last ten minutes.

When…

”You hate me, don’t you?” they both said at the exact same time. Gaining each others attention, they were slightly taken aback that they had thought alike.

”No” they both said, still staring at each other.

Silence…

”Ash/Misty” Both were embracing the other now.

They pulled apart a little and stared into each other’s eyes, both relieved by their known feelings for the other.

They needed to talk about this. Sort things out between them and make some decisions. Ash began by letting Misty know about his mother’s support and how he and Brock were attempting to find a job.

***

It had been a good few hours by the time Ash and Misty had finished talking. Brock at one point had ease dropped in on them; he was concerned about this and needed to know if they were talking about the future of their child. He didn’t have to worry much. They had been discussing about what Nurse Joy had told them. All he had to do was find out what their decision would be.

”Brock, we’ve made our decision.” Misty said in a soft voice. Immediately he looked up from the book he was reading to listen to their choice.

”Misty and I think it would be for the best that our child be adopted.” Ash told him.

”Are you positive you want this?” he asked them carefully.

”We only want the best for it, offer all the love, and care from a loving family, who could give the baby the best sort of upbringing. What kind of a life would we be able to offer for it, Brock?” Ash explained.

Brock understood this decision would be a hard one for them to make, he was a little disappointed that they had decided to have the baby adopted, but they had thought this through and made their choice.

Was it really, what they both wanted?

***

Ash and Brock were both up at dawn again that morning; it was time to go job-hunting once again.

They both looked at the job vacancies on the board in the ‘Job centre’…

”That one there might be one you could do Ash.” Brock pointed to one of the ad’s on the far right of the board.

”Hmm… ‘Pokemon research assistant wanted. Must have a full licence and experience with electrical elemental Pokemon.’ Yeah! I would be so perfect for that job. I’m going to find out about it over at the enquiry desk.” Ash told Brock.

”Okay, I’m going to keep looking.”

***

Brock had been looking for some work for a while, but had no luck. ‘I wonder if Ash had any luck’ he thought to himself. He went in search for his younger friend. Ash had been enquiring about the job vacancy that Brock had pointed out to him, it was good pay and was in Celadon city central, the only problem that came with this was they didn’t need anyone for another month. So his search continued.

Brock had found Ash near the enquiry desk. “So Ash, any luck?” he asked.

Ash sighed. “It was a good job and it paid well, but they don’t need anyone for another month. So I had to scratch that one on the head.”

”Oh, let’s just keep looking for a bit longer.” Brock replied.

Another day came and went with no luck. Every job vacancy they found suitable for them turned out to have the odd problem. Deciding to quit for the day, they made their way back to the Pokemon centre. They had been walking in silence when Ash decided to bring up something with his older friend, something that had been on his mind since yesterday.

”Um… Brock, can I tell you something?” Brock nodded in reply. “I really would like your advice as well.” he added.

”Shoot… what’s on your mind.”

”It’s about our decision on adoption, I’m kinda’ having second thoughts.” Ash said despondently.

Brock gave Ash all of his attention. “What do you mean, second thoughts, you want to keep the baby?”

”Yes… Brock, what kind of a ‘daddy’ would give up his own child? I don’t know what to do, how do I tell Misty.”

”I’m not quite sure what to say to you Ash, all I can say is… tell her the truth.”

”Your right, I’ll tell her when we get back.”

Brock smiled inwardly, he was glad that Ash had spoken up about this. Deep down in side, Brock wanted them to keep the child and was disappointed they had decided on adoption.

***

*Pokemon centre*

KNOCK… KNOCK…

”Come in…”

”Mist, can I talk to you about something?”

”Sure Ash, what about?”

”I… I… Misty, I want to… to keep our baby.”

Silence…

***

Brock was waiting for Ash to finish speaking to Misty, he was waiting in their room. He had been pacing along the floor for the last 15 minutes. ‘What’s taking so long’ he thought desperately. Just then, the door opened and both Ash and Misty walked in.

Brock looked up to see Ash; he noticed a smile on his face. He then looked at Misty, she looked happy too.

”Brock… we have a very important question for you…” his grin growing bigger as he continued. “Would you do us the honour of becoming our child’s ‘God Parent’ “

Brock was overjoyed; he hurtled toward the pair of them and engulfed them in a massive bear hug.

Exhilaration and rejoice were the pure emotions that they were all expressing. All holding on to the other tightly, laughing, and crying at the same time.

Hearing all the commotion coming from the room next door, they both looked at each other with questionable looks on their faces and headed in to see what was wrong. ”Togi?” (huh?) “Pika pika!” (Beats me!) He sweat-dropped.

***

*That night*

Misty awoke with a jolt, the pain was unbearable. Grabbing a hold of her stomach, trying to ease the pain, she clenched her teeth tightly together and whimpered.

She felt sick again, rushing to the bathroom and slamming it shut. She felt horrible, she was hot, and sweat was pouring all down the back of her neck and back. Her face had no colour and her eyes were slightly glazed over. Getting up from the floor she put the lid of the toilet seat down and sat on it, she brought her knees up to her chin and cried into her hands, she couldn’t take this pain anymore. She just wanted it to go away.

While silently whishing, the pain to go away, she then noticed the small blood stains on the floor of the bathroom.

***

Ash was the first one up, it was a sunny day, the birds were singing, and the sky was clear from any clouds. He was excited about letting Nurse Joy and his mother know about their decision to keep the baby. He walked out the door of his room, closing it softly as not to wake Brock or Pikachu, he silently walked passed Misty’s room; he then heard what sounded like Togepi crying. ‘Mist must be awake’ he thought. He then frowned, ‘that’s strange, Togepi hasn’t stopped crying, Misty normally wakes straight away when it starts to cry’. Becoming concerned he tried to open the door, but it was locked, he knocked a few times, there was no answer. Starting to panic more now, he went back into his room and tried the connecting door. It opened.

”Misty?” he called softly.

Walking over to the bed, he noticed Togepi on the corner of the pillow wailing and thrashing about. He leaned down to approached the little egg to reassure it, but noticed the red stains on the sheets of the bed.

”Misty?” he asked once more. Forgetting about Togepi, he turned to search for her. “Mist… Misty, are you Okay?” he could feel his heart rate increase, finding it hard to catch his breath as he moved toward the bathroom. The door was slightly open and he could hear whimpering coming from inside. “Misty?” he asked again softly, while pushing the door open.

He gasped at what he saw next.

Misty was on the floor of the bathroom, curled up in a ball crying into her hands; she was lying in a small pole of blood; it covered her legs and the bottom of her nightshirt. He ran to her side and lifted her into his chest. He was in shock, there was blood everywhere around her.
He could feel the tears rolling down his cheek when he heard her whimpering.

”Please don’t leave me… It’s my fault… I… I… killed our baby… please don’t leave me…I…I didn’t mean too…” she sobbed in a whisper.

”Shhh…” he hushed her a little. Closing his eyes tightly and burying his head into her chest, they both cried together.

***

Brock had been disturbed by the constant wails coming from Togepi. He got out of his bed and walked over to the connecting door, walking into Misty’s room, he noticed Misty’s bed was empty. Thinking it a little strange she had not come to comfort the baby Pokemon, walked closer to the bed, what caught his eye was the red stains that were trailing along the floor toward the bathroom, which instantly alerted his attention to what he could see. Misty and Ash were on the floor of the bathroom crying and blood surrounded Misty.

”Oh my god!” he breathed. Regaining his senses, he rushed out the door to call for help.

***

He had managed to call for an ambulance and was now searching for Nurse Joy.

”Nurse Joy!” he called.

”Brock, what’s the matter?” she asked noticing how pale he was and the urgency in his voice.

”Nurse Joy… It’s Misty,” he stammered. “I… I found them… there was…was…blood and…”

She gasped, and ran to his side to help hold him steady. “Brock, did you call for an ambulance?” he nodded in reply.

With that sorted they rushed back upstairs to Misty’s room.

She couldn’t help but feel a little woozy from seeing that much blood, you would think being a Nurse she would have been able to hold her stomach. She knelt down beside them and touched Ash’s shoulder. He looked up at her. She could see them both now she could hear Misty constantly repeating the same thing over and over again. ‘She’s in shock’ she thought. Moving her attention to Ash now, she softly spoke. “Ash, when did you find her?”

”I…I found her this morning…” he sobbed through his tears. She turned to Brock, who was staring at them with tears in his eyes. “Brock, can you see if the ambulance has arrived yet?” she asked him softly. He nodded and left to check. Turning back to Ash and Misty, she couldn’t help but feel for them, they were so young to be experiencing this kind of loss, the amount of pain they must be going through must of be unbearable.


She turned her head toward the door when she heard Brock telling the paramedics which way to go.

***

Sighing, she watched them take Ash and Misty away in the ambulance heading toward the hospital. She turned and went back in side the Pokemon centre and walked over to Brock to help console him.

***

*Hospital*

”Mr Ketchum?” asked the doctor which had exited from the room in which Misty was in.

”Yes” he answered standing up from his seat anxiously.

”I’m afraid Misty, suffered a ‘Miscarriage’ I’m really sorry.”

Ash feel back down into his seat, the tears were again burning his eyes as he lifted his hands to his face and sobbed into them. ‘Oh god no…’ he repeatedly thought.

***

1) – Don’t ignore your feelings…

Remembrances.

‘ During the short time I knew about my baby, I had begun to dream about what my life would be like from now on.
I would wonder whether it would be a boy or a girl, when she/he would be brought in to this world.
This baby had begun to fill in corners of my heart and of my soul with the many thoughts, dreams, and love I had to offer.
Someday, I may be able to get to hold my first child and even see their first smile, although my darling baby may be in heaven now, I still have an empty space in my heart that’s reserved only for you.’

Ash Ketchum
15^th January 2016

Putting the pen down, Ash had finished the last sentence in his journal. He found it easier to express his feelings on paper, rather than talk it out. He looked over to where Misty lay asleep. She had been asleep for nearly three hours, gently lifting her hand and placing it in his, he stared at her.
Memories of finding her earlier that morning were still haunting him; he felt so numb and helpless, ‘If only things had gone differently, or maybe if I had woken up a little earlier this morning… I should of checked on her sooner… none of this would be happening to her, if I hadn’t of been so irresponsible… I should have thought about what I was doing and what would happen if I carried on with out protection…we weren’t even ready to have Sex in the first place… what were we thinking…’ these thoughts were entering his mind all at once, making it hard for him to concentrate. Deep down in side of him he knew he couldn’t have done any thing to prevent this from happening.

They needed time to mourn and heal.

***

2) – Don’t allow your feelings to control you...

Misty had been let out of the hospital after nearly a week, Ash had decided to take her back to Pallet. The time together and a place to rest were what they needed to help them through this. Misty had been showing the classic stagers of grief that followed such a painful loss.

They were both feeling different kind of emotions and were grieving their loss differently from the other. Misty had been going through the medical and emotional trauma, of this. As for Ash, he felt a sense of loss and helplessness. They both needed to heal in their own time and in their own way.

Ash was sat on the swing chair in the porch; he would come out here sometimes to think when he couldn’t get to sleep. He looked up toward the sky full of stars and sighed. His mind was on Misty.
She hadn’t coped very well with the loss, crying her self to sleep most nights, or having nightmares. She had blamed her self for every thing that had happened. She had told him about her wishing the baby would go away and telling it that she hated it. She had even refused and ignored Togepi. Ash wanted to help her so much, she had hardly eaten anything for the last couple of days and this worried him, she hadn’t spoken very much, and when or if she did, it would only just be capable of being heard. She needed help, and he was the only one that could help her, they needed each other’s support and understanding. All he needed to do was open her up, let her emotions and feelings come out into the open. ‘But, how do I do that?’ he asked him self.

3) – Happiness does not always come so easily, so find it naturally…

”Ash”

He heard a soft feminine voice call his name. ”Misty, what are you doing up so late?” he asked her softly.

”I couldn’t get to sleep…” she replied.

As the moonlight lit her face, he could see her eyes shimmering with tears, “I don’t want to be alone anymore Ash.” She sobbed through her tears. He rushed to her and held her in his arms trying his best to comfort her; this was the first step of their healing. She had come to him for help not the other way round.

”Your not alone Misty, because you’ve got me.” He whispered in her ear.

She looked up at him; she could see the concern and love for her in his eyes. She hadn’t felt wanted or needed since the baby had died, she smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck to move closer to his warmth and compassion, feeling once again safe, “I love you Ash.” she spoke lightly in his ear.

Hearing this for the first time from her, he smiled, ”I love you too Misty.”

As the moon and stars shone down on the sleepy town of Pallet, people and Pokemon slept peacefully under it's blanket, happily dreaming while being watched by it's beauty, only two were awake to appreciate it's shine, and elegance, holding one another close allowing their light shine through to meet the lonely night.



***

4) – Laughter and Joy are healers...


”Brock!” they both shouted at their older friend. Running up to greet him.

”Did you guys miss me?” he called back to them while speeding up his pace.

Meeting half way, all three friends had entangled into each other’s arms.

”Well, did ya?” he asked them again.

”It hasn’t been the same with out you!” Ash said with a large grin.

”Of course we’ve missed you!” Misty exclaimed.

”Pika!” (Yeah!)

”I knew you would! What would you do with out me?!” he said proudly. He then frowned and sweat dropped when he saw Ash, Misty and Pikachu had been talking to the Pokemon in his arms.

”Oh, Togepi! Mommy and Daddy missed you so much!” Cried Misty in delight. “Yes we did… didn’t we Ash.” Misty cooed.

”Yeah.” He said while tickling the little baby on its belly.

”Togi, togi, priiiii.” It trilled in delight in Brock’s arms.

”Umm… Guys… hey, are you listing to me…” he moaned.

Ash and Misty looked up from Togepi for a second and rolled their eyes. “Your so full of yourself Brock!” Misty mumbled under her breath.

Ash heard her little comment and leant over to kiss her cheek, he smiled and grabbed a hold of her hand. Deciding it was time to hit the road again.

”Come on guys! I have a Pokemon league to get to… I’m gonna’ be a …”

”We know, we know… A Pokemon Master!” they both said at the same time.

Thing’s were back to normal…

5) - Healing doesn’t mean forgetting, healing means refocusing…


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Okay, a bit of a depressing ending! I did warn you though! Please review! E-mail address: angtanuk@yahoo.co.uk

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