Forlorn
Somewhere, I know, she is out there,
living a whirlwind of happiness with someone else by her side. When I am in my
loneliest state, as I am now, my feet automatically ascend the spiral staircase
that twists and turns to my haven, the lighthouse balcony. It is my home even
more so than the cottage by the sea that I bought with the profits from the
Pokemon Storage System. So now I stand here, the light beam shining in the
direction of the sea, the light wind of late November toying with my hair.
It’s impossible to describe how I
feel about Lanette Roberts. We met one night several years ago at a computer
convention and what attracted me to her was not her soft brown hair and eyes,
but the degree of her intelligence. Naturally, she was quite humbled to meet
me, I being the creator of the Storage System, and expressed her interest in
creating a more advanced version for Hoenn. That simple conversation led to a
dinner meeting in Goldenrod City, where we discussed the mechanisms of the
System I had created specifically for Kanto. She was slowly developing the
System and planned to stay in Johto so we could work side by side instead of
via email correspondence. Naturally, by now, I was falling for her, with the
speed and momentum of the fall increasing every day. I was overjoyed to have
her in town, so I introduced her to my family. Harriet and Benjamin, my little
brother and sister, were all over her as if she was a member of the family
already, and I caught my parents casting knowing looks at one another several
times during the course of the evening.
“You didn’t tell us you were
bringing a girl home, William,” Father said in a low voice once Lanette was out
of earshot. “Or was that whole big speech about never marrying and devoting
your life to Pokemon just a ruse? You were only ten when you made that speech,
after all.” He winked at me in that knowing way all parents have, but I only
busied myself with my tie, trying not to sweat from nervousness.
“Oh, Father, don’t be silly,” I
responded with a shaky laugh. “We’re just friends and colleagues; it will go no
further than that.”
Father looked past me to the trim,
pale form of Lanette waiting on the doorstep and smiled. “You may say that now, William, but your
feelings will change, trust me. I went through the same feelings when I met
your mother, and look at us now: we have a wonderful life and three beautiful
children. You could be like that one day.”
“Children and marriage never did
suit well with me,” I replied. “If you’ll excuse me, I think I’ll escort
Lanette back to her hotel.”
“It will change, my boy, your
feelings will change,” Father said simply in parting as he softly shut the door
on the two of us. Lanette turned to face me, light from a nearby streetlamp
only revealing the shadowed profile of her face.
“What was that all about?” she asked
as we walked through the bustling metropolis of a city. “Your dad was being
very secretive about what he was talking about with you.”
“Oh, it was nothing worth repeating,
I assure you,” I answered. “You know how fathers can be, always jumping to
conclusions about things that aren’t true.” I took a quick glance to study her
expression as we neared the hotel lobby entrance and realized that she was
staring at her shoes.
“My father was always very strict
when I was young from what I can remember.” She spoke in a soft voice with a
tinge of sadness in her tone. “He believed that humans and Pokemon were not
meant to coexist as friends, so I wasn’t allowed to attend the Pokemon
Trainer’s School in Rustboro City. We lived in Sootopolis and were isolated
from the rest of Hoenn as it was. Mom managed to talk him out of it, but he
only allowed me to continue my education at home, and I was barred from
studying Pokemon. That was one of my fondest memories as a child, working out
mathematics with Mom in the warm kitchen and studying computer textbooks. They
were fairly new back then, don’t you remember?” She turned to me, her brown
eyes probing mine, a faint smile on her lips. God, do I love her smile…
I shivered a bit at the thought. You
will forever be single, Bill Maxwell, I reminded myself sternly in my mind.
There is absolutely no point in thinking about illogical things like…well, love
at a time like this. “Yeah, I used to love building computers for people here in
Goldenrod. They called me a prodigy, but I was always humble when it came to
all the recognition,” I answered. “Now that I think about it, I still am.”
“Mom’s friends all called me a child
genius because of my ability to solve algebra problems at will,” Lanette
answered as we finally stepped inside the lobby and took a seat on a forest
green velour couch, an awkward silence suddenly hanging over our heads. My eyes
strayed over to the elevator at the far end of the first floor and I met
Lanette’s gaze again.
“So…shall we go upstairs?” I asked
with an air of a schoolboy who had absolutely nothing to talk about.
Lanette’s gaze was distant, and then
she let loose a giggle. “I’m tired of formalities, Bill, let’s be children
again, just for tonight and then we’ll return to our philosophical discussions
tomorrow. Is that good enough for you?”
“Yes,” I answered promptly. “There’s
just one thing I want to say.”
Lanette turned to me with innocent
curiosity, but she couldn’t hide the teasing in her voice. “What?”
“I would be happy to escort a fair
lady such as yourself to her room…if the maiden in question can catch me
first!” I tore off into the lobby, Lanette laughing like I had never heard
before. We must have looked like a sight to the hotel management, two of the
most esteemed people in the Pokemon scientific community running up and down
the halls of the formal hotel like two wild little children, the children we
never had the chance to be. Mentally, that was what we were at the time, and
when I look back on it, it was the most fun night I had ever had.
“You’re getting warm!” I would say,
egging her on to keep her going, but then pulling ahead at the last minute, my
black calf-leather boots pounding into the carpet. We startled housemaids every
so often, causing us to laugh even harder as they exchanged looks.
“Bill, you cad!” Lanette said with
breathless laughter as we finally reached the door of her room. She had her
hand on my velvet coat and was just beginning to catch her breath after the
chase and our shared laughter. “That,” she said with satisfaction, “is the
essence of being a child. Thank you so much; I not only got a workout, but I
caught you at the same time.”
I turned and looked into her shining
eyes with a smirk. “No, Lanette…I think we both caught each other.” I couldn’t
hide it; the sly, teasing part of me was coursing through my veins. She smiled
as well, playing along even though we both knew what was to come next.
“It all depends on your definition
of catch, Mr. Child Prodigy,” she answered as I felt her slip into my arms.
Surprisingly, I did enjoy the idea of holding her close to me more than I
thought I would…
Remember when I told Father that
love and marriage didn’t suit me? I broke that vow the minute I leaned forward
and let Lanette’s lips brush mine, feeling more happier than I ever had been in
my life. It was passionate, it was innocent, it was a breath of fresh,
beautiful wind. I felt her body begin to twirl in my arms and we danced like we
had never done before. Although I’m sure people stopped and gawked at us, I
didn’t care. One thing would be fresh in my mind when we pulled apart, if we
ever allowed each other to let go: I was in love and it was wonderful.
All
that obscured my vision were whirling, yellow lights and Lanette’s soft brown
hair.
***
We
kept in touch via email after Lanette returned to Hoenn and I went to Kanto;
she would email me of the events in her life and her progress on the Storage
System. By daylight, I would pace around the cottage wondering when she would
drop in for a visit, and by night I would relive that glorious night in
Goldenrod repeatedly. As much as I was unsure about marriage and all it held
for couples, Lanette Maxwell had a nice ring to it…
Then
one day, a week ago, I believe, she finally showed up at my door. Her cheeks
were rosy from the late November chill that was befalling the region, but she
was positively glowing with warmth as I embraced her again.
“Oh,
Bill, Bill, Bill,” she whispered into my neck just after I had managed to shut
the door so that prying eyes couldn’t see what was going on between us. “I did
it! After all these years of trial and error, I did it! I finished the Storage
System! Emailing you wouldn’t have the same affect that telling you in person
would, so here I am!”
“Congratulations,
yours most likely surpasses mine by leaps and bounds,” I said laughingly as we
pulled apart, and it was then that I became aware of how much colder the room
was when we weren’t holding each other close.
“Don’t
be silly, Bill,” she scolded playfully. “All I did was model mine after yours
and adjust it; I have no need of praise.” I responded by kissing her on the
cheek, causing her red cheeks to darken to crimson.
“Do
you have need of tea?” I asked teasingly as I sauntered into the kitchen to put
the single copper kettle I owned to work.
Fifteen
minutes later we sat together on the couch, steaming cups of tea in our hands
as we stared into the roaring embers of the fireplace. Lanette was snuggled
next to me, but not so much that it felt cloying. She sipped her tea and faced
me, her expression the same as it had been on that fateful night several years
ago. “Bill?” she asked softly.
“Hmmm?”
I asked, weaving my fingers through hers.
“Did
I ever tell you about Celio, my childhood friend from Sootopolis?”
“No, but I have noticed he’s
been in the Cerulean Herald lately because he’s trying to develop a
Pokemon Network System, whatever that is,” I answered in an uninterested voice.
“Why do you ask?”
Her
tone wasn’t light or teasing now, but grave and serious. “I didn’t come here
just to tell you that I finished the Storage System, Bill. Celio needs a bigger
area to conduct his experiments, so he’s moving to One Island and I offered to
help him move in. I’ll be gone for at least two weeks, but I’ll email you often.
I promise.”
A
curious feeling was taking over my soul as she spoke those words; was it
jealously at the thought of Celio and Lanette alone together for two weeks that
bothered me so much? “I look forward to them, Lanette, you’ve brought life back
into this cottage again. Enjoy the surf while you’re there.”
“I
most certainly will,” she said with a shadow of the smile I adored. “Oh, yes, I
almost forgot, I’ve got something for you.” I watched her slender hands dig
into her pocket until she drew out a Pokeball. “I hope this Eevee I caught will
bring as much life as I have to this cottage, Bill. When you see him, think of
me and know that I love you.”
“That
is a definite promise,” I answered as I gave Lanette a quick hug. She set her
teacup down on the coffee table at our feet, pulled on her faux fur coat and
stepped out, shutting the door behind her. My gaze never left the door after
she left, somehow dreaming that she would turn around and stay a little while
longer. If only Celio didn’t have to steal her away so soon…
“I
love you more than you realize, Lanette,” I whispered softly as I turned my
mind to other matters. The Pokeball with the Eevee inside was still sitting in
my palm, so I figured that now would be as good a time as ever to introduce
myself. “Come on out, Eevee.” I let the Pokeball drop to the floor, and Eevee
appeared soon after.
“Vee!”
it greeted me in a cheerfulness that echoed Lanette’s personality. I bent down
and scratched her behind the ears; she nuzzled my hand in return.
It
was the start of something beautiful.
***
A
blast of wind quickly draws me back into the present; I’m standing next to the
lighthouse railing, my eyes on the foggy sea. Somewhere far out beyond the
horizon, I know she is on One Island with Celio, but the hope that she will
visit me when she returns sustains me every time I think of it. I stretch my
hand out to the dense fog and try to catch it with my bare hands, but I know it
a fruitless attempt; trying to touch the fog makes me feel closer to Lanette
even though we are miles apart.
“Vee?”
Eevee’s soft, questioning tone causes me to turn around and face the light
flooding outside from the lighthouse tower door. I smile at her, encouraging
her to join me on the balcony. She leaps into my arms and we stare out at the horizon,
pondering the mysteries of the sea in companionable silence. I have learned in
various studies while dressing up as Pokemon that it is in the most peaceful of
times when both Pokemon and trainer meld as one. My observation is true in this
moment in suspended time, the twinkling stars and sea in between Eevee and I.
“Come
on,” I tell Eevee finally, breaking the midnight tranquility. “Let’s go and
email Lanette, I’m sure she’d be glad to hear from us. I follow Eevee to the
lighthouse door, but before I start down the spiral stairs and back to Cerulean
City, I pause again. We are closing the door on the night, and I don’t feel so
forlorn anymore.