Blind

~ hey peeps! Just something I’ve decided to write in reflection of my life. Let me know what you think! As always, I don’t own characters blah blah blah, just the storyline ~

I was so sure. I was so confident. I had felt this way for too long now, and it was about time I deserved some happiness. So, instead of laying back and pouring all my problems into my diary, I decided to do something about it. I would take the first step, put my heart on the line for a chance to love, and be loved in return.

But, despite my confidence, my plans failed and my heart was broken. I had decided to tell him the very same night he failed his Indigo League entry exam. I thought that hearing that someone loved him would bring a smile to his lips, the smile that seems to light up his whole face, and his deep brown eyes that I get lost in so often. He was sitting near a small lake, not too far away from the pokemon village that we were staying at. His cap covered his eyes and I could tell that he was beating himself up inside. I wanted to take away that pain, wanted to pass on the confidence I had somehow mustered up inside of myself.

So, I sat down next to him, bringing him out of his trance. He stared at me, his brown eyes sore from his inner pain. I nuzzled closer to his side and he removed his glance from me. Instead, he continued to stare at the lake, his hand resting on his cap as if to hide his anguish from me.

“It’s a beautiful night,” I said, following his gaze into the painting of ebony, dotted with gleaming white stars. I wanted to try and create a comfortable atmosphere between us before I told him of my feelings, but when he gave no audible response my temper rose.

“You don’t have to ignore me, ya know,” I said, aggravation evident in my voice after a few minutes of pure silence.

“And you didn’t have to come out here,” he said, turning on me, annoyance clearly written on his young but always maturing face. His dark eyebrows were furrowed into a frown; his once happy brown eyes now contained fierceness, piercing into my own blue orbs. I turned away from his hurtful gaze and closed my eyes briefly. His sarcasm bit into my heart and I silently winced. Why do I always say the wrong things?

Opening my eyes again, I sighed. He must have noticed this as his gaze returned on my somewhat shabby appearance. With my long orange hair tied up in a bun and with baggy sweat pants and a sweat top on, I couldn’t call myself the most attractive person right now. However, I could feel his gaze on my skin and it warmed me. Turning, our eyes met and he gently smiled at me. That goofy, but adorable grin that always made my toes curl.

“Why are you out here, Mist?” he asked quietly as if he was afraid to break the silence between us. The use of my nickname pinned me down to the spot. God, he had never called me that before! Did this mean that…he could possibly like me back? Could he feel this growing heat that surrounded us? The chemistry that tied us together?

“I was worried about you,” I told him honestly, earning another heart stopping smile for my utterance. My hands entwined themselves. It was the only thing I could do to stop myself from pouncing on the guy! Surely he could feel this! Surely he could feel the same way…

He stood up suddenly and started to walk away from me.

“Wait!” I called, managing to stop him in his tracks. He turned to face me as I approached him, his dark hair got caught in the light breeze and tickled his cheek. My hand was shaking with the urge to touch that cheek…I knew it would be so soft…and warm…

“What is it?” he asked, rather frustrated.

“I just-” I took a deep breath. Where had all my confidence gone?

“I just needed to tell you something,” I finally managed, daring to take a step closer to him to inhale his sweet scent. He looked at me cautiously but held his ground nether the less. His careful eyes wondered my presence; he was trying to figure out what I would do next. Getting lost in the proximity between us, I followed my heart, just as I was told to. I took a step forward, closing the space between our bodies, and placed my lips on his. At first, there was no reaction as I continued to kiss the guy I’d been dreaming of constantly. I lost myself, there and then. I surrendered to him, heart body and soul. I was his for the taking. Unfortunately for me, I didn’t know just how much he’d take.

His arms soon locked around me, and I deepened the kiss in response. It was everything I could have wanted, perhaps even more. I had dreamed of him kissing me before, but it was nothing like this! Losing myself even more, I let him tighten me in his grasp. Pushing me down, he laid me onto the grassy floor, his strong, lean chest resting over me. His kisses became fiercer, more hungry, and I responded to his sudden craving with a muffled moan. I was enjoying myself so much that I didn’t mind his hand sneaking down to the waistline of my sweat pants.

This sort of thing wasn’t uncommon to me. After all, I am nearing nineteen. I’m not saying that I’m a slut, in fact I was far beyond that. But, I do enjoy sex, and when it was with a guy like this, how could I refuse! I’d been pining for him for so long now that I had almost forgotten what it was like to be touched by a guy. And that was my mistake. Letting him have me for what he wanted, rather then listen to the little voice in my mind, screaming at me to stop.

The desire was too much. I just couldn’t handle it. I wanted him, needed him right there, right then. But looking back, I was blind. I was foolish. I was played. Even when he zipped up his pants and left me on the lake’s edge admiring the stars, still drugged full of the passion that just commenced between us. I was blind. I was blind to what he truly felt for me.

And so commences my story of the desire I held for Rich. How it consumed me and made me unable to see all the good things that were around me.

~ So, what do ya think? I know I said its AAMRN, and it is! Just later on in the story. How many of u guys thought that was Ash eh? Hehehe, well, Ash comes into it next chapter, if you think I should continue it. So, let me know! Please! Xxx ~