A/N: I can't believe, I added such a twist. I didn't mean to. I mean it was suppose to be a simple, very simple beginning with Jessie and James joining Team Rocket, not this. I was supposed to have started the main plot line ages ago. Okay here's finally what James saw in Jessie's bedroom. Oh yeah the beginning is in first person view with James talking later it switches back to normal point of view.

Disclaimer: I don't own Pokemon but don't get me wrong. Like any fan I've tried.

Chapter 6: My Love will bring your Memories Back

I don't know for how long I was standing outside my sweetheart's bedroom screaming. It seems like eternity since the last time I saw Jessie up and running. It seems like light years ago when we were so carefree. Not knowing what love was. Not knowing that we cared. All we cared about was surviving and being part of the bike gang. Team Rocket still seems like a mythical dream in the back of my mind. Was it this and everything else that drove Jessie to her limit? Or was my fault? Had I came back and listened to her from her pleading had made any difference? Had I simply trust that mysterious being that bought me home that night made a difference? Had I not gone to Todd's shop and listen to his long lecture of "The Savior" 's made a difference? Why didn't I barge into Jessie's room early? Could I have stopped it? Could I have stopped her from making the mistake? Could my undying love for her have been enough?

All I can do now is nothing, simply nothing. I open my eyes, and all I see is white light, pure white light. I'm I in heaven with Jessie like I so dearly wish I were. When will the agony stop, I thought heaven wasn't suppose to have pain in it. Why do I feel like someone's dragging me back down? "No, I want to be here, here with Jessie. I don't want to go back," I shouted.

A small voice in the back of head is screaming out to me in a deep voice. "Kojirou! Are you sure you want to stay here? Miss Musashi is fine."

 Fine! Did they say she was fine? James's eyes immediately opened to the fullest to see four people standing over him two males and two females. One of the males was dressed in a white coat with a small clipboard in his hands.

"Don't you want to see her?" asked the man.

Of course I want to see her. James immediately bounded up from the comfortable bed that he was laying in. The moment he got up he felt a cold bag hit to his forehead. James looked up start that the bag was filled with clear liquid with a skinny pipe coming out of the bag. James immediately traced the pipe with his eyes and found that it led to his arm. The pipe was sticking in his arm! A full blast of pain came from his arm as he finally realized that a needle stuck him his arm.

The realization must have been too painful for him as he doubled over and fainted right on the bed. The two women giggled at Kojirou's actions.

"I never knew Kojirou was squirmy about needle. If I had known early, we could have scared him into blasting off," said one of the women.

"Misty!" scolded the other man. This one wasn't wearing a white coat but a set of regular casual clothes.

"What?" asked Misty trying to sound innocent.

"It isn't polite you joke about other's phobias," scolded the man.

"Why Brock? After all is was our enemy," said Misty.

"Was Misty. That's the key word. He and Musashi are our allies now. Remember?" asked Brock. Suddenly a thought triggered Brock's mind. "Hey have you two ever said you were sorry yet?"

"No!" said Misty and Haruka together. After the nerve-racking week, Misty and Haruka had completely forgotten about their promise to Brock that they would say they were sorry. Even Misty had forgotten about it. She had a tiring and depressing week only to have it end with something like think. They had raged another war with the leader of the Pokemon and lost once again. Thunderbolt had to retreat again. Misty knew this was no way to fight. Sleep powder, paralyzing spray, and other methods of stopping the Pokemon in their tracks were no way to fight. They had all ran out of bullets plus there were problems of shooting their own side. Somehow all the Pokemon that they had ever forgot had learned the attack transform and could transform into humans. Millions of Team Thunderbolt's own soldiers some of the best were shot by inexperienced rookies. Guns were soon outlawed on the field bring in the new powder method. It was a stupid way specially since the Pokemon rather get hurt. They were fighting a losing battle, and Misty knew that. What hurt her most and scared her in the first battle she ever fought was that she could be destroying her own Pokemon or Pokemon in her past that she had helped. It use to frighten her in her sleep when she had deliberately hurt a Pokemon.

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Kojirou woke what seems like hours. When he was awoken, this time he noticed that the pipe connecting to his arm was gone. A different doctor came in this time and took him to Musashi's room. There he found three chairs near the bed. Kojirou sat down and faced Musashi's body. Her eyes were closed. A bandage was wrapped around her head. Both of her hands were upon the blanket. One of her hands were bandaged and her other had the pipe going into her arm with a silk bandage eloping around the pipe.

James took one of Jessie's hands and unclasped his hands around her small delicate hands. Even though slumber she looked just as pretty.

"Come on Jess. You got to wake up. You're like one of the strongest people I have ever known. When we first joined Team Rocket, I was petrified. It was the first time in three years that we had been apart. I was scared that I wouldn't make it, but I praying that you would. When I found out, we had both made it I was scared. Your dream of joining Team Rocket was complete. What if now you didn't care for me any more? There were tons of suitable, young, handsome guys to pick from. But you choose me, me. I thought you would stay with Cassidy, but you didn't. The day she betrayed you it was the happiest day of my life. I didn't know why. You were so cute then looking angry. You refused to be her partner and chose me instead. I was glowing when you told the Boss that you changed your mind. Our time with Team Rocket was fun wasn't it? We learned to escape from jail cells, steal, and just have evil on our minds. Mondo was nice to us. Don't you wonder what ever happened to the guy? Even failing out of Pokemon Tech was fun, cause we did it together. What am getting at Jessie is that I don't care that you had another love before me, what important is we're together now," said James. He felt a string of tears fall from his eyes as he raised his hands to wipe them away.

James quickly blinked a couple of times, as if afraid that someone would see him cry. James always tried to act like a man now instead of a crybaby. He felt it was his duty to be strong for Jessie. He had to be strong for her now. She needed him now to heal, and James knew that.

"Stop it," moaned a womanish voice. Startled that someone saw him James looked around and saw that the speaker was her.

"Jessie," said James excited. He grabbed her hand and kissed it a billion times. "You're a wake!"

"Of course, I am," snapped Jessie. She quickly retreated her hand to back to her side. Jessie moaned as she looked around the room. All seemed so unfamiliar to her. "W… what happened? W…where am I? Who am I?"

"Who are you?" said James startled he never excepted a question like that.

"Yeah, who am I? And who are you?"

"Stop playing around Jessie. I know you're mad at me, but not knowing who I am, is taking it a little too far don't you think?" asked James.

Jessie's face showed no sign of recognition as she simply shook her head. Before James could go any further in trying to coaxes Jessie into remembering. The door of the hospital ward open to reveal the same doctor that James had met the first day. The doctor simply walked to Jessie's bed. She tested her pulse and examined her eyesight. When he was done, he pulled up a pitcher of clear water and a glass cup. He poured the water into the cup and toss in a small pill. He waited a few minutes as if waiting for the pill to completely dissolve. He handed it to Jessie and told her to drink it. Watching her finish the whole glass, he left the room motioning for James to follow. Glad to have a reason to leave Jessie's side, James followed the doctor outside.

"What’s wrong with her," he quickly bauble out.

"Can't you tell? She has no memories," said the doctor simply

"What do you mean no memories?" asked James. He looked at the doctor strangely not getting what he was trying to tell him.

"Musashi, has no memories. She knows nothing about her life. It's up to you fill in the blanks. The pill that I give her allows the side of the brain that stores her memories to function again. It's a new pill that just been discovered, but the success rate isn't that good. Prof. Ohkido discovered this pill one-day. He has this strange analogy that says that when people get amnesia not by a head wound but because they want to forget. There is something painful that happened in their life that they wish never happened. Since the people ponders about it everyday all day, the brain knows that by forgetting is the best way. But since the brain can't automatically forget, its needs an extra push. Jessie's fall normally wouldn't cause her to forget, but because she wanted to forget, she forgot. But since it wasn't accidentally, Prof. Ohkido believes that if a person wants to forget the memories are still there. The pill I gave her hopefully with coax her brain back to remembering."

James didn't get want the doctor was saying. Jessie wouldn't want to forget. Why would she want to forget? She had him. Why did she want to forget? It's safe here. No more running away from Pokemon. No move cold nights. Why did she want to forget?

This didn't sound at all like the Jessie he knew. He was confident that Jessie was just acting. But the face that she showed him when she asked him who she was all an act of confusion. Did Jessie all of a sudden learn to act or has she really forgotten?

James begged himself to tell himself that Jessie was acting, but a small voice deep within him was telling him that Jessie wasn't acting this time. He didn't proof. James had to get proof. "I got to see her again," blurted out James. The doctor simply shook his head.

"She's resting now. She needs to rest to remember. Come back tomorrow. That's when the real healing of the heart comes. I sense that you love her, do you not?" asked the doctor.

James nodded.

"Then show her that. Show her that she needs to life. If she tried taking her life once, she might try again. Tell her that she is worth something. I don't know what happened in her past to cause her to want to forget, but now its up to you to fill in the pieces." The doctor left James with those words to think about then left. A sudden thought came to him. I got to talk with Prof. Ohkido.

"Wait Doc! Where's Prof. Ohkido's lab?" blurted out James.

The doctor turned around and smiled. "Out this hospital and go to Masera Taun. It’s the biggest building there. You can't miss it."

"Thanks." With that James ran out the hospital. He found the map of the underground and found that he was in Tokiwa Sitei. Masera Taun was the next city over. James found the tunnel that he needed and hitched an underground train all the way to Masera Taun. The underground train system ran everywhere throughout Thunderbolt. The trains go left and right while the elevators go up and down. Both types of transportation run throughout the tunnel system.

Just like the doctor said James found Prof. Ohkido's lab. Only thing was the lab seemed awfully familiar. Heck the whole town looked awfully familiar. Then it clicked into James's brain. "This is the twerp's hometown," blurted out James. "The twerp! That's it. It was the twerp and his friends that Jessie wanted to forget. It is their fault that Jessie forgot, and I will make them pay," grumbled James. He knew it was no point now to meet Prof. Ohkido. He knew what he had to do now. If James could make the twerp's friends pay for what they did, then Jessie will remember again. James grinned at his smartness. Jessie would remember in no time.

The rest of the week after James's lesson's with Shiba he immediately went to Tokiwa to check up on Jessie. Now Jessie knew her name and what James knew of her past. James enjoyed watching Jessie's expression as he explained their last adventure to Jessie. He had already told Jessie about their relationship, but somehow James's could see that somehow Jessie didn't forget about that.

Today's visit was like the rest only thing was before James went into Jessie's room the doctor suggest that he start her rode to recovery. James had been refusing to talk about how she got to the hospital. Each time Jessie asked about it, James would change the subject. But somehow today James's felt that he needed to talk about what happened. He was planning on setting his plan up to action. Jessie was being to remember on her whole about some events in her past, but still somehow James's had a feeling that their was something else missing. And he was praying that by getting back at Kasumi, Haruka, and Takeshi would patch up the missing piece.

"Jessie you know how we haven't talked about how you got here?" asked James.

Jessie nodded. To she nodding was the easiest thing to do. Her memories were coming back so devastating that it scared her. At night when James's wasn't there she would have these painful nightmares of her and two other flying into the sky. It was after James's reassurance and explaining of that chapter in her life that the nightmares started getting less and less.

Now she felt the same angrier and distaste that James felt of Misty and Haruka.

"You know that we're in Thunderbolt's best hospital in Tokiwa?" asked James.

Jessie once again nodded. She had remembered everything that the world was before the war. She remembered why they were fighting. Basically everything that Jessie had once known about her surround and past had came back to her. Her dislike of Cassidy had came back. The old Jessie was nearly back except for one part. Jessie still felt there was something missing.

"Do you remember what happened?" asked James.

Jessie once again strained her thoughts trying to remember, but nothing came to her. "Noo," she moaned softly.

"Here let me give you a hint. I found you lying on your bedroom floor in a puddle of red. Does any of this make any sense to you?" asked James. He was trying patient with her, but this long week of not enough sleep of worrying was taking its toll.

"No," moaned Jessie again.

"Try harder Jessie. I feel like you do remember. I know you do remember. Please Jessie, don't lie anymore. I can't stand it anymore. I want to our relationship fresh like we promised. No more lies. No more secrets, please. I know what you did. I know that you tried to commit suicide." There he had blurted it out. His fears, his worries what caused him to scream that night. James had found Jessie lying on the floor with a bullet wound to her shoulder. The doctors had told James that Jessie was lucky. The bullet barely grazed her shoulder. It was more the in compact of the floor that caused most the damage. Jessie could have cracked her head open on the stone block. Lucky she missed it by a mere inch. Her hand her suffered most the blow breaking her arm bone.

"Suicide?" mumbled Jessie. She didn't get it. She hadn't tried to take her life away. No! She hadn't. She couldn't. Her life meant everything to her. "James, I didn't commit suicide," mumbled Jessie softly.

"What do you mean you didn't commit suicide? Jessie, stop the lying! Just stop! I'm trying to start over with our relationship. Don't you get it? No more lies. No more hurting. Just the truth," mumbled James. He grabbed Jessie's good arm and held and tightly. He was begging with her, yet Jessie's facial expression didn't change at all. Her face was still filled with blankness. Nothing clicked. She couldn't remember. She didn't remember.

"I didn't commit suicide," said Jessie angrily. She knew she didn't. Then it all came flooding back to her. Every detail, everything of her life the argument she had with James that morning. How much Misty and Haruka had humiliated them? It all came back. Everything, everything about that night came back to her.

"You don't remember…" started James. He was cut off. As Jessie stuck out her finger and quickly covered his mouth with her finger.

James reached to his mouth and removed her finger. "Jessie?" asked James questioningly.

"Yes, James?" asked Jessie. Her voice was full of love. It was the first time since the accident that he had heard Jessie speak with so much emotion in her voice.

"I remember now, James. I remember everything. I remember our fight. I remember my talk with Misty. I remember what happen, but how can you not James. You were there remember? You saved my life remember?"

James simply nodded. Why was she making all of this up? Why couldn't she just admit that she had tried to commit suicide? Why? Why? Why? Why was she so stubborn? Just like the doctors said. The sooner she admits what she did. The sooner the healing process could begin.

"Jessie please, " begged James.

"Please what?" asked Jessie sheepishly.

"Please stop pretending," begged James.

"I ain't," snapped Jessie. "Can't you remember? Can't you James?"

"No Jessie. I didn't see you trying to commit suicide. I saw you. Why won't you admit it? It's not a shameful to try to take your life," begged James. He tried reasoning with her, but each time he tried to counter her. She sent his remark back to her.

"Please Jessie," pleaded James. But as the hours dragged on the two were getting no where. James was getting tired of Jessie's pleads. So tried that he decided to listen to her. He was willing to go that extra mile and hear her out.

"I didn't kill myself James…"

It was a hard time. She had just had the biggest argument with her love, and now he wouldn't listen to her. Why didn't he just hear her not? Her childhood crush wasn't anything. He didn't even like her back. The two had met at a Pokémon training camp. Back then her heart was full of dreams. She was like most children who had their hearts sent on being a Pokémon Master. Her guardian had sent her to the best Pokémon training camp in all of Indigo. That's where she had met him. He was the cutest boy there and the youngest. She was years older then he was. The boy was probably only five, but she had a crush on him. His spirit was what attracted her to him. He was something special. That Jessie knew, but she never got his name that year. The next year she joined the bike gang, and never saw him again. She had found other crushes. Most she knew their names, but that boy is always remembered. She had a crush on him, no not a crush. She loved the black hair boy that captured her soul. She found out his name years later, but by then she had already given her heart to Team Rocket and James. The boy was on the good side. The law biding side and she was his enemy. She could never have him, but why then did she remember him now?

"Fine then what happened?" asked James. He sighed when he noticed that Jessie wasn't with him. She was deep in thought. He knew that look on her face. She showed it many times in their childhood when they were planning traps for the twerps.

"After you left James I took a long walk around the base of Thunderbolt. But my brain was throbbing by the time I neared Shiba's school. I knew these headaches. There always last for two days with the second day in total agony. I told Shiba that if I didn't show up tomorrow it was due to head pains. He believed me. I managed to get back to my room. I took a couple of sleeping pills. Then it happened it was late in the afternoon when I heard a knock. I got it there he was. He had a messed up face and said it was for revenge. He pulled out a gun and shooed me into the bedroom. He wanted my jewelry, but I refused. He… he punched me. That's when my lifesaver came. It was a boy. I didn't get a close look at his face, but I thought it was you James. The boy defended me. Took the thief one for me, but even his agile movements couldn't stop the gun from going off. It bruised past my shoulders. The boy knocked the guy out and come to my side. He said he was sorry. For what I don't know, but he told me what he did was because he had it. He said that I was good. Said to not give up on you, and that you really do love me. I passed out then. See James. I didn't commit suicide."

At the end of Jessie's story, James's face immediately paled. "Did the boy have a heavenly tone of voice?" asked James started.

Jessie eyed James funny. When she saw that he wasn't lying, Jessie thought back. She tried to remember his voice. Then she remembered it. His voice was like a holy angel's voice. How could she have forgotten it? His voice wasn't even heavenly. It was a young boy's voice mixed with an unearthly voice. The voice was comforting

"Yeah. Wait how do you know?" asked Jessie started that James would have known.

"Because that voice warned me. Wait a sec…" James remembered. He had heard that voice many times. It was the same voice that had saved him and Jessie from their doom. It was the same voice that bought him home. The same voice warned him to go to Jessie.

A/N: Let's just say I had to stop this chapter here. This chapter was going to have ended with James's plan completed, but nah I decided I against it. Well till the next chapter. I guess.